i doubt

will everything be just fine? i doubt.
im afraid of myself now, afraid that i will make the thoughts come true someday

face it

i am finally clear about what is wrong with me, in some sort i supposed.
i dont wish that its true though, never.
indeed, i think its just transitional, everything's gonna be alright.
all you need to do is just to curb your fear.
face it and solve it.

terrible driver

well i think that i shouldn't be driving anymore.
gosh, i almost leaded to chain collision last sunday
what's wrong with me?
i was black out at the moment, i didnt see any car in front of me and it did freak me out, a lot.
okay, technically im a terrible driver.
guess i have to pray really really hard for not to end up in an accident as i always have an intuition that i'll be killed in a car crash.

i could be better

there are always things that you cant simply get involved with or take control of.
no matter how hard you'd tried, you are out of the game
how pathetic am i, been running into fool's errand all these while
why are they doing this to me?
is it because am not good enough? or am i flawed?
look, i could be better, better than what am i now
just dont left me behind please, i beg.

another september, another story

i am again, somehow, feeling insecure.
so its september again, the 19th september in my life, kinda speechless huh
anyhow im gonna cherish this september, in my very own way.
hopefully i can have a good story in september
i can never say never