move on

its been a week, since i'd celebrated the birthday.
seems like forever to me though.
people around me kept asking, so its your birthday, how do you feel about it?
well i feel old; old enough to care for everyone i loved, to take care of 'em.
but im just not wise enough to say it out, loud.

you know what, the moment when i saw the 2 candles that sparkled on the cake, i did realize that i really am 20 now!
i felt like crying in that very moment, for no reason
its like i was in emptiness, i doubted if i could move on.
still though, my girls were with me.
to me, they are the best pressies i ever had.

it takes a long time for me to get to know 'em, as from a stranger to a bff.
i gotta admit, the lady here is never a people person.
she keeps distance with everyone, there is always a wall between you and her.
anyhow they just broke the wall and made no distance.
they are really adorable, arent they?

of course, lotsa thanks to mummy and daddy.
because of them, i am here in this world.
hmm they still make a good parent after all these years
i guess that wouldnt be easy for them, to come through everything in their marriage.
and their once crybaby daughter is now a big girl,
the big girl that they can be so proud of...



you cant miss what you didnt have.
just move on, that is all you can do now.

thank you, mum and dad.

im gonna jump start my twenties in another 2 days.
how soon, you aint a naive teenager anymore.
so i made an impetuous decision in the earlier of june.
hey pals, im going to travel to shanghai in the end of july!
solo travel, in frank.
credits to daddy for my flights, i guess that would be the best present i ever had from him!
of course, credits to mummy too, she wants to sponsor some of my expenses.
still though, i would never tell 'em that it is a solo travel.
they gonna kill me for doing this alone!
anyway, thanks to dad and mum for doing these for me.