the real side behind the hyper lyong

i was a bit hyperactive tonight according to selene.
but then i just continued to laugh and talked a lot of nonsense, continued to hyper..
yet the real side behind the hyper is sadness.
i hate the feeling of overwhelming with grief, seriously.
why can't somebody stay beside me now?

thanks for the memories

i didnt go for the bbq gathering tonight as i really disappointed to some circumstances.

so i went to hangout at somewhere of kl after jee sent me to kl sentral.

i went bookshop and bought a book, 'thanks for the memories', i like the author — cecilia ahern.

xu, next year i b'day you buy me her book la, haha~

i dont want 'ps, i love you' arh coz i already got that book. ~_~

nope, just kiddin' la..

reached home at 10pm, and finally i decided to go to the gathering met them for awhile.

the bbq is finished but i sempat saw some of my best friends and ex-classmates there.

at that moment, i finally found that she's a stranger to me, one of my best friend, and i still remember that at one time i used to 'stick' to her.

yet now i dont feel like talk to her anymore, it's so sarcastic to me.

and after that went mamak stall yamcha with some of them as others already went home.

i shall rejoice that she's not there otherwise i sure sit down diam diam and drink only, just like what i did yesterday when she sat beside me.

then i crap a lot there lo, laughing and gossiping.

if xu, eddy and jee see me talk like that arh, sure terkejut wan, haha~

anyway, i dont think that there's another gathering like this anymore.

so thanks for the memories.

am i disappointed?

am i disappointed?
i guess i am.
tonight, i'm a sentimentalist that'd been fooling by you.

looking forward

kay, currently in the mid-sem break (yet i still have a v.c and t.e replacement classes tomorrow), sigh~
the only thing now i'm looking forward for is the oncoming saturday's gathering.

whoosh, i can meet my 5A10 fellows!

it's been such a long time i never meet some of them for more than 6 months, kinda miss the time that we made noise in the class.

anyhow, i still love you 5A10.

what a malang night

phew~ i went midvalley just now, together with selene.
wow, we were like so spirited, after one utama then went midvalley somemore.
and i was like so malang today, not today, is tonight.
first, i lost my way.
omg, i seriously couldnt recognize the route to there!!
that's why i lost my way AGAIN.
okay, it's fine, i reached there finally yet another mishap happened.
and i super duper hate this! damnit, almost all the parking there was full!
i was wasted half an hour to drive back and forth just to find a parking lot, sigh~
somemore everyone in the carpark like so desperate to fight for the parking lot, woosh~
alright, after wasted half an hour, i started to give it up.
and finally i ended up it with illegal parking.
what i meant is that i didnt park my car along the stop line but just simply parked it at somewhere.
my conclusion is: i will not try to drive to midvalley anymore, the carpark there sucks, i hate it.
and another thing is i hate the way go there, damn confusing, yucks~

what should i do?

admittedly, i don't know which kind of feeling should i have after xixu told me about the 'truth'.
frustrated? irritated? or just nothing?
i could only tell that's really in my expectation, i could feel it.
i think the only thing that didn't come up to my expectation was she chose to confess it.
did she notice that i was trying to evade her these few days?
seriously, i really don't know what should i do right now.

agony of indecision

i am always in an agony of indecision.
seriously, i am quite irresolute to make a choice, i can't even know what am i thinking sometimes.
i gather that's why i never make myself clear.
and my indecision made me terribly gauche.
i sincerely make my apologize here to myself.

don't say

don't say anything to me if you didn't mean it.
i hate the feeling of being fooled.

mid-autumn festival

it's mid-autumn festival today.
people keep on talking about reunion dinner.
hmm, their reunion dinner excited my envy.
today there's no such reunion dinner in my house as it is impossible to fit my whole family member in an ordinary table.
anyway, it's okay for me.
the most rejoiced thing is that we can play lantern and candle tonight.
right, xixu?
by the way, don't burn your house off. >.<

vios-licious

fuuyoh~ i was driving vios today!
that's the car of gv's mum actually.
after i got the car then went national library together with gvtaa and xu.
and i guess we just stayed at there for not more than 15 minutes as we couldnt find any useful books there.
declaration from lyong: national library is kindasucks.
so we planned to go mph in midvalley after that.
but we lost our way when on the way went there, kesiannya~
thanks god, we managed to reach there at last.
the conclusion is: i had a vios-driving + lost in bangsar tour today.
it's so vios-licious.

impossible... things are happening everyday

will it be happened?
i mean to do the confession.
i had already done the declaration, so when will the confession?
hmm, i wonder and i guess the two desperate girls also wonder when will i make the confession, right?
who knows, maybe someday i'll just go and confess suddenly.
impossible... things are happening everyday.
so just wait patiently.

love stories: do fairy tales come true?

there're many love stories that we ever known.
i like to watch the fairy tale love stories screened in the movie, do you?
the love stories in the movie always inspire us and sometimes became a part of the image of what romance supposed to be.
yet when it comes to reality, we will realize that it is only a dream that could never happen.
that's why so much people fond of fairy tale love movies, so am i.
but i don't really think that fairy tales do come true at present.
by the way, i guess at certain houses... fairy tales do come true.

sentimental

i was a bit sentiment for today.
maybe it's all due to the circumstances of these 3 days.
sleepless night, unfinished model, car accidents, sickness, etc.
tears were falling down suddenly when i'm in the train.
and i felt like crying when i saw chua and selene came to fetch me home.

bad days

sigh, i did have bad days for yesterday and also today.
gosh, i involved in an road accident yesterday!
and now everytime i see my car, damn sad, man.
another bad thing, today is the submission date for the building construction group assignment yet we havnt done our final model and that portfolio thingy, sigh again.
so we all are staying in the studio to do it now, have to finish it by 3.30pm, do you think that we can finish it on time? i wonder...
and the last thing is: i'm damn sleepy!!
now i can even asleep while i'm walking.
omg, i really had a bad day.

i'd changed, what about you?

9th september 2008, 00:27, i'd cleared away my '69° iN my mind'.
finally, i did it.
things may become terrible when you get used to something and i think that i really had to be rid of it.
otherwise it will become more and more complex, i never meant to get him back.
he should knew, as did i, that the things will never be the same when he told me so.
so why not just let it go, no point for me to keep it right? (maybe i just finding some reasons to convince myself to do so, sigh.)
time flies, feeling changes.
i have to stop my persistence towards him as some feeling had gone.
somehow, my persistence will never be rewarded.
from time to time, things changing unnoticed, as did with people.
sorry that i'd changed.
what about you?

time flies, everything goes

i used to wonder why people always say things like 'time flies like an arrow', 'wow, it passed so fast!', 'it's that time?!' and what so ever...
i'm sometimes one of these people, though.
time has really flown and i can't believe that i've already survived for one semester in my architectural studying, currently struggling in semester 2.
and now is september, i am passing on to the last quarter of year 2008.
times flies, everything goes and people changed unnoticed.
i did change, she did and he did also.
she told me that she's no more a childish girl.
he told me that his feeling had changed.
so what about me?
i couldnt tell what had changed on me but everything goes difference.
how time flies!

ps. xixu, i must tell you, things really change unnoticed.