contradiction

so its march now, tension of opposites on its way.
things are not getting better, aren't they?
soon after i'll be graduated from college with my diploma
yet im totally at a loss, i dont know what's next
to be exact, im not sure if there is next
this is so contradictory;
part of me is scared of leaving college, part of me wants to go desperately
i wonder what the big world will be like out there
dont you think that its so appealing to go and see the big world?